Saturday, 3 January 2015

January 2015

Happy New Year all!

Learning is never easy. It will only be easier if you like it. -2.1.2015

Force = No Happiness. -2.1.2015

Find those things that you like and build your skills from there. -3.1.2015

I am only as special as you are. -3.1.2015

Those who live life objectively are respected but those who live life emotionally make friends. -4.1.2015

I want to have tons to energy even when I am at an age of an elderly woman. -4.1.2015

"Don't expect, instead appreciate." If you blindly appreciate everything, how will there be any rooms for improvement at all? -4.1.2015

Be bold not just smart. Do you want to be the smart ones who knows the answer but does not speak up or the ones who at least tried even if they are wrong? -5.1.2015

If things are not what you want to see, just close one eye and get things done! You must not allow the existence of others to get in your way of doing what you want to do. Let's not make this another modern day problem. Don't wait for the right time to show up, do what you can for now but never let go of your ideal environment. -5.1.2015

You will never know all the outcome of your choices until you make them. -5.1.2015

This feeling of possible failure is stressing me out, making me stronger and giving me a chance to fight back this obvious negativity within me. -5.1.2015

If you keeping failing just by doing the same thing, try to make little changes. -5.1.2015

What really happened does not really matter depending on your point of view. Create a story of your life that you are willing to share with others. -5.1.2015

Who has accomplished what I want to accomplish? -5.1.2015

See it as it is. Seeing it better. Making it the way you want to see it. -5.1.2015

I can never appreciate the art of messiness. -6.1.2015

Don't try. Commit to it. -6.1.2015

Those around you are not as insignificant as you might think they are. It is not always about you. Unless you don't mind at all living all by yourself in this world, without any contact with anyone else. -6.1.2015

I know I am a timid person. I know I've tried to hide it. What I should have done is to be more honest to myself. -9/1/2015

The person that I admire is my little brother who always find something to laugh about each day. The way he would stare back at you when you look at him. You will think he cares for you because he seems to cherish your existence. He would tell you "Don't be mad." whenever you pretend to un-friend him. You can tell him anything and he will ask you the meaning of the words that you just said. It can be easy to underestimate his capabilities because of who he is. But I think he is a really nice and friendly guy. Today, I have learned something from him. I can't quite put it into words but I will write it down here when I do. :) -9/1/2015


Sometimes, there are times where you don’t feel like living anymore because it is not worth it. The feelings that you are feeling right now are tearing you to the point where you don’t mind dying.
The point where I feel like I don’t mind dying is when things around me is not happening the way I want it to happen or when I feel alone. This is selfishly stupid and emotional. But who am I to judge, even myself? Human are emotional creatures there are just some things that we can live with and cannot live without. We can make bad decisions when there is nobody else to guide us, nobody who cared enough to do so.
I don’t like it when my boyfriend hangs out with his guy friend because that friend of his once confessed to me and that made everything feel awkward. Until now, I still feel awkward with him around. How can I stop feeling awkward whenever he is around? I probably have to spend time with him and get to know him better so I can “like” him and change my perception of him and “update” our friendship. So, whenever my boyfriend stopped messaging me or whatsapp-ing me for a while because he was hanging out with this guy, I get quite annoyed emotionally. *exhale* Of course I love my boyfriend very much but whenever I think that maybe he isn't there for me anymore, I would…oh gosh, I am tearing up already. Anyways, I just wouldn't mind dying whenever I have thoughts like that, probably because he is one of the reasons that I have that made me think I have a good life, a good future, with a guy like him. But it can be so hard to face his “best” friend.
Another part of me is starting to rot whenever I feel alone again in college life. In my opinion, which obviously is a one-sided one; I think I tried to be friendly to my classmates but they are just not into me. I could be sensitive. Aquarius are sensitive beings….okay maybe not. I just Google it up and it says that Pisces are the most sensitive zodiac sign. Anyway, I was kind of aloof back in the days so I was hoping to have a more sociable college life this year around but this wish is not really blossoming to full bloom just yet. My inner self is telling me to be patient and never give up. “Don’t push people away!” “You gotta try harder to connect to people!” “Don’t be like your old-self!” Oh gosh, I have a lot more to do huh?

Reading the descriptions about my zodiac sign is very encouraging. I sound like a great person, very knowledgeable and interesting but it does not sound like me right now. I am hungry. 
( scored 76/100 for this one in Grammarly, haha! ) -27/1/2015